it’s wierd to know that when you do something that is instinctively right but consciously wrong, something bad happens everytime. it’s like a sign that you shouldn’t be doing it….

but yet, the more it seems like a mere coincidence that bad things will happen everytime after you do it, the more you feel like challenging it, experimenting it, as if pushing the limit of the power of nature on how bad she could make you suffer, taking you down when you least expected…..

i always wonder if it’s just the state of mind?is it physiological?? is it the guilt?or is it the nature’s way of telling me that i’m not on the right course…..after so many “coincidence”, i would very much like to belief that the latter is true…

 things which are consciously wrong have this catch : every attempt to supress it is followed by a greater urge to commit to it…..(you know, like a motor tics)….well, maybe you could call this addiction…

sometimes you just wish the nature have a more direct way to tell you things which are not right, telling what you should and should not do….and tell you the consequences of doing things which are “naturally” wrong, instead of hiding behind many masks, keeping you wondering the exact message that she wants to convey to you….