SECRET CORNER OF THANATOS

it was a fine saturday afternoon when i went to the sportshall to play badminton after almost a month of absence due to exams…

as i entered the hall i noticed fewer ppl than usual….at least 1/2 of the amount of ppl they had a month ago. the atmosphere was kinda wierd….felt like an alien there…..as apparently the rest of them are part of the so called "badminton team" formed not long ago for the coming nizhny games. but what the heck, i played like i usually do….

after awhile due to my self-diagnosed congestive heart failure stage 1, i decided to sit on the bench beside the hall…watching the rest of the players play for the coming games.

when the time was almost over, they had a sort of like a small "badminton team" meeting…..which involved almost everyone in the hall except me. thing is, they decided to do it right in front of where i was sitting. as i was waiting for another friend, i just sat there and wanted to wait for the meeting to finish so that i could go back with him.

probably they needed confidentiality, or probably they were planning for some top secret assassination of the president or something, a few minutes after they started talking and realised my presence, few of them turned over to me and ask " why are u still here?" , " can you go away ah?"

maybe to some extend i should respect their so called "privacy" and confidentiality. but they could have made that meeting somewhere else. or if they are talking something official and righteous, what do they have to fear, right??? but of course, i soon began to realise why my presence as an outsider were not welcomed there….for they too, in their subconscious, realise what they are discussing are not suitable to be known by the public….

of course, i couldn’t be bothered more about the content of their conversation. being the egoistic person that i am, i would feel humiliated if i just stand up and walked away….esp when asked by a junior 2 years younger than me….i am no saint ok…

then the most outrageous thing happened…as their conversation proceed, God knows what they were talking about, suddenly that 2nd year junior turned around and asked me with a rude tone:

"hey, are you part of the nizhny games committee???"

"no…….."

" fuh, luckily you are not, man"

" oh yea? so what will you do if i were??"

" if you are part of the committee i would belasah you man,seriously….."

"……………"

mind you, i was just a passerby sitting beside the bench when a wierd bunch of ppl came around me and talked about something unmelodious to my ear when suddenly one of them(a junior lagi) wanted to belasah me…. i tell you, even the samseng in my school never spoke like that to me…

if u were in my shoes, how would you react???

p/s: his tone of voice (yea, still talking about that same junior) was absolutely different 7 months ago when he asked for physiology notes from me…..how realistic human being can be…..haha…