numbness…
is what i am feeling right now…..
i am numbed with my surroundings….still aware of what is happenning, but fail to give any appropraite reactions towards it…
exam is in a few days time, i am supposed to be nervous, but i am not…..at least not yet…
i am not particularly happy or sad, just indifferent to things that could make me happy/sad last time…
i used to be so hot-blooded, passionate about commenting about almost everything that doesn’t follow it’s right course….now, i get the impulse too, but the passion is not strong enough for me to waste my effort on it….
maybe that’s why i blog less nowadays…coz blogging used to be a medium for me to record the moments i think gives impact to me, in one way or another…
hardly anything could touch my heart, nor surprise me….not even the political changes in my country, or the change of state of the health of my relatives…
i wanna find the factor that could make me cry again, remind me again that my heart is made of flesh, not steel…
but right now….i dun feel anything…
even the food i cook does not taste as good anymore….
guess that’s another way of saying my life is boring….
