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well…not exactly la…from putrajaya to be more precise.

today when my aunt was supposed to fetch us back from there back to mlk. mana tau before leaving the house, she said…today, i’m going to seat at the back reading newspaper,you drive!!

it’s a nissan cefiro auto car la…..i know it’s easy to drive auto. but i nv drive before wor….

and i never drive on highway before…the fastest speed on the road when i drove was only 90 km/h

this means alot to me when someone put so much trust on me who have only driven satria manual and nv been on highway b4…(maybe she’s juz lazy to drive….but still…to put her precious car on my hand….that can’t be juz pure laziness…right?)

driving has never been so tiring for me before….so long man….

but anyway we reached mlk in one piece….altho my grandma didn’t sleep throughout the whole journey…hahaha

and i slept from 9pm till now (2am)

well….to recap what happened from last saturday till now…

last week, after the funeral… went to play badminton at centre point. yuen yi ajak me… but then i pulak ajak the others…so in the end the court was like too crowded….but anyway glad to see so many people after that….it has been the only day of the week when i have chance to do some exercise….

p/s: the money we paid yuen yi is only half of the real price…he counted wrongly… i think we should pay him back lo….i did…

then after that was supposed to go shopping with my cousins in mp….then something caught our attention. it was 8tv in MP!! well… there was some winner of the superstar thingy who was signing autographs…any 8tv merchandise sold there could be used….so that day i did a stupid thing by buying a mousepad+note book thingy and asked the other cousin to get the signature for me…..now come to think of it…it was really stupid….i dun even know who they are….hmmm….the funny thing is because some of my cousin are crazy over them…and i suddenly remembered i brought my camera during badminton (dunno for what!)….i ran all the way to car park and all the way back to took these photos….click here..

then ate steamboat after that at night…..fetch yuen hoong to my house to wait for liang to shop in jj…..then lepak together-gether….

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on tuesday… went to kl to buy books. as u might remember, kamal bookstore in jalan pahang is the only place(known to me) to sell medical books…this time my granny followed as my aunt wants he to stay in her house for a few days.

soon after she fetched us from pudu, we went to a thai restaurant in some shooopng complex named chitralada…. it was a nice meal. we had green curry, tomyam, some mango salad, and asparagus…and cendol for dessert…there were some local filming there. luckily we managed to cabut before they start shooting….or else you might see my fat ugly face on tv1 in one of those shows soon…

then after my aunt settled her stuff…..she drove me to jalan pahang….bought the books i needed…which i’m still wondering how am i supposed to bring it all there…it’s DAMN FREAKING HEAVY! omg!!……i even bought a stethoscope for around 200+….oh man…..i could almost feel my wallet crying…

while i was at my aunt’s place….managed to give some intensive bio tuition to my cousin….

then the second day….went to mid valley with my cousin… wanted to find a shoe…but no luck la….anyway had a good time with my cousins…

at night… my aunt ordered a dish called "pen chai" which literally means basin dish…..it really was a basin with mixture of 20 dishes on each layer in it… it reminds me of those times in ancient china when they put all the leftovers for the dogs to eat….it looked exactly like it… except it’s with chicken, prawns, kou rou, tau ki, chinese saussage, some dim sum, glass noodles, seaweed, pork, duck and others…i mean…you would never have such  leftovers right… anyway it ws quite good…except that they did not have distinct taste in the end as all the flavour was kinda mixed…. i was supposed to take picture of it…..but being typical of myself…i forgot to charge the battery…

then today went to alamanda in putrajaya lo….bought a cheap shirt from giodarno…anyway it was no surprise tho….. that place might be beautiful and all… but i’ve been there last year…

so now i dunno wat to do…might plan to go somewhere later on…next stop’s probably penang…. i want to go redang soooooooo much….. cares to join anyone??

this happened about 1 week before i type this. it’s kind of a big thing for me…so i think i should record it.

if u’ve read my previous blog, and wondered if we’ve told my grandma……the answer is—YES!

it’s cruel for her, but we figured that she had the right to know it…..we could only hope that she took it good….

and she did better than i expected.

i could never forget how she reacted. at first she startled awhile. then she began to cry like a baby…..literally…the last time i heard it….it was at her sister’s funeral…that voice of hers..made me and my mom cried too…

then she calmed  down for a while. when the phone rang again…she began to cry again… it made me feel like crying too…

actually compared to my uncle’s death….i feel sadder to see her sad and cry…this propbably shows how deep our relationship is….

then we went to the "old house" where the body is being kept before funeral.

the cruelest part came when the body was sent…and my grandma walked to it…

(in hokkein)" why did u leave me? why are you closing your eyes lying there?open your eyes! wake up! WAKE UP!"

she started to cry again. it’s like a spell or something. when she did that….everybody around: my mom, my aunts, uncle all had tears in their eyes…

well of course…altho they seldom meet…they ARE siblings after all…

i wondered, when they see the body, did the sweet and bitter memories flash thru their minds??

and so anyway, on the second day, i went to singapore. and only came back on friday, a day before he was burried…. i followed my uncle in singapore who happened to go back for the funeral.

i helped abit here and there.

my grandma is clamer now…so is everyone else..

this unfortunate event has it’s good side….in a way….for once in a long time all my aunts and uncle come back and gather at the same place…..except one in uk who couldn’t make it becoz no flight is available… but i got to see my cousins and other relatives… it’s a harmonious scene to see them working together achieving something….i could almost feel the "positive" and calm energy around….and our relationship got better…esp with my singapore cousin whom i nv speak for like almost 10 years edi (coz seldom meet)…on that day after dinner while waiting for the prayer…he spoke to me….and then we got like quite close instantly….magical huh….

this is actually the first time i get to participate in the whole process of funeral. got to learn more about this chinese culture….it’s a very complicated process to send a person away from this world to a new heaven of his….and i sure do not hope to encounter one again soon…or ever….

on the day of his burrial…everyone arrived early…we put on the white shirt….when the time came…first everyone paid him a last respect, then, we paraded to the place where he was burried….it was another event full of symbolic things we did…and many pantang larang and stuff…..

as an elder, my granny wasn’t supposed to participate in any of that….she stood beside watching….i wondered what was she thinking then???