where is the red carpet??
it has been a week since i came back last monday. well, i would say it feel sort of different than the first time i came back. i remember the first time we reached klia from doha after 8 hours of flight, and we heard the announcement in bm, we were so excited. but this time, only one word came out of my mind :"lame"…..
i dunno why, the feeling of wanting to come home and meet everyone i know here back in malaysia is not as strong anymore. it’s wierd because when i was busy preparing for exam and was exhausted, i couldnt wait to go back…. every night i dream, i dream of home, family, and friends…those were the rare nights during the exam period when i had sweet dreams….but how can the reality deviate so much from my dreams?
i can see, most of the places, buildings are still the same. but the people have changed.
it was a monday when i came back. i went to pasar malam, intending to meet someone familiar. to my dissapointment, not a single person i know is there….the same goes with the wednesday one… it’s like my hometown has been colonized by aliens….err…. i mean those mmu students and small kids… for the first time in my life, i suddenly feel that i am old….( although i am only 19)
my lack of passion and anxiety is probably due to the post exam syndrome. i had my last exam 2 days before i come back. and after that i did not even have the time to rest. i had to rush to the dean’s office to get my visa, waited for my friends who had problem with the dean’s fella..after that had to teach another friend about physiology from scratch, compress what i have learned in 4days( which is supposed to be learnt in 9) into one…i dunno how did she do, but i sure hope she dun dissapoint me.(yo, semangat tok guru khai lip…hahaha)
that’s not all. my room looked like WW3 battle field. and my fridge……i din clean for 1 year….and i am supposed to clear up the mess in less than 36 hours before my van come to pick me up to moscow. not to forget buying souviniers….and packing my luggages…( well, i did ask many people on my phone list what they want, as i have limited time, i only bought for those who replied. next time, any request should be made 2 weeks before i come home…hehe)
so after those work in limited time, i suffered from severe mental and physical fatigue. how could a person feel excited and anxious after all that??!! thus i am sorry if i actually spoil the mood during gathering….
speaking of gathering….everytime when i meet up with my friends, i had the most enjoyable time, all those jokes were authentic and sooooo funny….never had such laughter since God knows when…..ah…how i miss the happy feeling man..so far i’ve met liang, phang, soon, zhou, dee, fae,siang, joanne,jaet, xiangpei, qing ci, lih fang joon boon and yit sen…. the rest are still unreachable.
oh ya….my new number is 0172132436…..this number might last a while oni till i go back…or probably i’ll register it… so whoever i haven contact….please msg me….coz some of the contacts are left in my russian sim card…..sigh…
i have used up my 1 week holiday at home. i think it’s a waste of time. damn! i have work so hard for 300 days and i am not going waste all my holidays sitting at home. i am going to do something…..something memorable, at the same time recharge myself before going back for another 300 days… i know many cannot join me this time, due to lack of coordination in time. i probably have to travel alone….anyway, i still hope to go somewhere with my friends…esp my sec ones…seems like we’re the closest but i haven done anything "close"with them…. how sad is that….
and,i have another aim—- to loose weight. well, it’s not the first day that i realised i am fat. and i know exactly how other people look at fat people. i don like that feeling. since i can battle exams all these while, i don see any reason why i would loose this battle against my own fat!
on the other hand, i am doing practical in the general hospital tomorrow….for probably, 3 to 4 weeks. i hope i’ll get useful experience there….and make my trip back there worthwhile..
feeling nervous now….hope things will go smoothly tomorrow…
