to tell…or not to tell??
i woke up this morning….opened the door when my mom delivered a bad news for me…
my uncle passed away….
it was an unpleasant news of course….but now we face a bigger dilemma—-whether to tell my grandma about it…
when told about the news, my first reaction is "ah ma must not know this"…..
she’s not in the shape to accept all this….it’s his eldest son…. i can’t imagine how a mother would react when her own child whom she carried 10 month leave this world earlier than her…it’s devastating…..
she said she felt uneasy and tired yesterday during the day……she wanted to go back to her old house… i persuaded her to go visit a doctor before that….and promise her that we would send her there by today….
maybe she knew something was going to happen…something bad…..this is probably the instinct of a mother….
she’s has changed alot since the last time i saw her last year…..now she suffers from short term memory lost….she forgets things easily…she needs to be reminded now and then…it’s frustrating at times…but nevertheless she’s still the grandma that i love the most…
thus, i would not allow anything bad to happen to her….nor would i allow anyone to hurt her….
she was told that my uncle is sick….
white lies….is it ethical?? it’s a question often brought up in the medical field….it’s very convinient to judge from a 3rd person view saying ”a lie is a lie"….but it’s not that easy when u have to face it yourself….
the truth always reveal itself at the wrong time….. she will know sooner or later… it’s cruel to keep a death of a son from his mother…. when she finally know….will she hate us from hiding it from her..??
of course….this is the least of our concern right now….. what worries me the most is her health condition and how she would react to such shocking news…
she would probably forget what happened after a nap….but i do not wish to take the risk….
i remembered last time when a close relative passed away….she cried….i never seen her so sad before…i hope she won’t be sad again….
to my uncle, i hope he rest in peace…and should he still love my grandma, he should bless my grandma with good health and happiness…
this might sound selfish…..but my grandma is really important for me…..she’s the closest to me as we lived together since i was bornt….she is of more significance to me than her other grandchildren…i can’t loose her now….
please….if u are reading this….please pray for her……
i am going singapore tomorrow….i really hope nothing would happen when i leave…
the weather is gloomy these few days….it rained esp heavy and long this morning….
might it be the cry of the mother nature to make up the tears of a mother for her son that did not shed??
or is it a satire of the nature on the helpless human being…..signifying a greater disaster yet to come??
