DO I EXIST???
i think the meaning of one’s existance is determined by people around him/her…..
when people around you…say your freinds and family remember, acknowledge, and recognize you, that means you "exist" in their world…..
that means your world is limited to those you know and care about…..the existance of those stangers that doesn’t have much effect on you and your life practically doesn’t "exist"….
the sense of existance or knowing that you exist in other people’s world can bring great sensation and pleasure….you feel like you are renognized, cared, wanted….
wherever you go, whatever you do…..will leave trace in someone’s life…..changing him/her forever…..
i learnt that when someone told me recently that her sis know me when i don’t know her…..i was surprised….but at the same time happy that somebody remembers and know me….(altho felt sorry that i din’t know her)…because i left trace in somebody’s life…
the deeper the trace you leave…..your existance will mean more to him/her…..
i once saw a show on tv……there’s one boy who have no friend…..nobody knows him, no one remembers him….slowly….he find himself "dissapearing"…..
i don want to be like him….
the sense of existance gives the meaning of life. there’s no point living in this world if you don’t exist…..
there’s once i went back to my secondarry school….unfortunately…other than my teacher….not many people in school recognizes me anymore….i realise…sooner or later…this won’t be my place anymore….
i won’t see the point of coming back anymore….i must move on….to a place where i "exist"
that is why i do not want to live too long of a life…..when all my friends and families are gone….when nobody remembers me….when i don’t "exist" in this world anymore…i don’t want to lead an empty life…..
sometimes when i hear people talking about me…remembers me as a friend…mentioning my name in their blogs….remember to ask me out for movie, yam cha….and some for opinion….makes me feel that i exist….
at least i won’t die later as a nobody…..
hey….so do i "exist" in your world???
