Do you have to be “smart” all the time???
i have a stupid question to ask the smart people out there…. aren’t you tired of being smart all the time?? Don’t you wish you could do something stupid once in a while?? For smart people like you, is it so unforgivable for stupid people to exist being who they are?? Are stupid people stupid because they do not do the normal same thing as what smart people like u do?? What is the fun of being smarter if you are already smart?? And, if you are not smart, why try to act that you are?? If you use up your whole life being smart, how on earth would u know how it feels like to be stupid?? After 18+ years of living, i think i can safely say that i’m not stupid….. But once in a while, i wish i could do something crazy, something that my "non-stupid" self would not allow me to do…. I don care if people think i’m crazy or stupid, which i know deep inside that i’m not…. i just want to be myself, do whatever i wanna do without checking the mirror to see whether i’m looking "smart" in other’s eyes… i hope i can keep the child in me forever because i think adults are stupid, restricting themselves to what they know….and keep themselves away from what they don’t….loosing all their imagination, and those wonderful things they used to believe in… when being childish, i can think of thousand of crazy things adult never think of doing before…which is FUN! i have walked around KL town whole night till the next day before taking my bus home to melaka…. i have cycled around the area the night before my result comes out coz was too nervous… i have shouted as loud as i could on the street midnight when the dog bark at me….(i actually scolded him back) i’ve been to russia….a place which i never heard of before going there…. i’ve gone venture around moscow…along with friends…although all these while i never leave melaka for holiday before…. i ran to the flower shop for 1km during spring to buy a bunch of flower for my latin teacher after my exam…. i’ve shouted friends name from a distance in a shopping complex when everybody looked at me.. I’ve changed my room appearence every 2 months when i was in primary school juz because i wanted it to look like the studio in "kelab disney malaysia" i’m still keeping all my toys:power rangers, xmen, cybercop, spiderman…and play with them once in a while…( i would group them into a large army, make their weapons, their paper airplane army, and their transport–flying cloud(from tissue) and would think of all sorts of super power for them)…together we fight the imaginary enemy…..hehe…..sounds stupid to u eh?? i’ve walked about 3km home from my friend’s house to at 3 am, because we din’t wanna wake our parents up to fetch us home… i have been to melaka’s museum….long stretch of historical stuff before going to russia…alone…took picture of my own along the way…( which if u ask most malaccan, they will think i’m crazy…) i have walked across a long bridge during winter in russia when it was -16 out there and the strong wind was blowing….juz to see a church on the other side of the bridge… All these and alot more are what normal people won’t do…..but i din’t regret doing it at all…in fact i think would regret more if i dun do all these crazy stuff while i still can, before i turn into another stupid adult…… i will be using most of my youth time studying….to do what i’ve always dream of….but i want to enjoy a fun life too along the way…if i don’t do it now, how am i going to do it when i turn into a stupid adult? (you can’t be expecting me jumping around like a small kid afer becoming a doctor) for me, trying my best to be smart is to wear a mask in front of others..something which i’m not comfortable with….. i don’t want to be the smartest person, juz wanna be the happiest one….if being smart can’t give me the happiness…..why do i want to be smart?? i want to be free…. to be me…. What about you??
